Sleepy Images
2004-12-31 @ 12:00 a.m.
I feel so much better.
Tonight my best friend called me, to tell me about one of the most important moments in her life. I feel honored that she trusted me enough to tell me.
Even so, it's still kind of weird. I'm surprised that I'm not totally freaked out, maybe it's because I'm still weak from being sick, or maybe I've just calmed down more as a person. Either way, I've accepted it and moved on. Maybe tomorrow I'll feel differently, but I doubt it.
The realization of lost innocence is hard to deal with. To realize that you can never go back to being a child, knowing that you are no longer a girl but a woman, is extremely mind boggling.
In fact, the act of simply growing up is hard to do. As a teenager so many changes are thrown at you, and it's difficult to make it through them in one piece.
Tonight I feel different, and I don't know why.
Tomorrow evening, at the stroke of midnight a new year begins. I will be spending it with my boyfriend, who, at midnight, will have been my boyfriend for one year. Hopefully, he'll stick around long enough to ring in 2006 with me, but then again, as this year has proven, nothing predicted is promised to happen.
-SaM
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