This Sensation Is Overwhelming
2005-01-09 @ 11:34 p.m.
'This sensation's overwhelming.'
Man, what a way to put it Green Day.
'She's a rebel, vigilante..'
Boom boom chicky chicky.
Anyway, I spent today with Dave, and wow, was it a nice relaxing day. I wasn't even dressed when he called for us to come get him(I was in a serious procrastinator mood.) We managed to be there in about a half an hour though, and he was five stops away when he called, so he didn't have to wait too long. My mom ended up bringing Art home with her, so we all had to go pick him up together. Art is someone I'm just used to at this point, annoying as all heck but always around.
'She's an extraordinary girl, in an ordinary world, and she can't seem to get away....'
'She's all alone again, wiping the tears from her eyes. Some days she feels like dying, she gets so sick of crying...She, sees a mirror of herself, an image she wants to sell, to anyone willing to buy...'
Dave left me with songs on my computer that he wrote, played, sang. There are one or three that are really pretty and I love listening to. The rest showcase he and Reggie's talent and I don't know, make me proud.
Dave hasn't smoked in one day, which is better than it sounds. One day can lead to a lot longer, even though I'm not entirely sure how long he's going to last. I think he'll be able to abstain from drinking and toking, because he doesn't do that very much anyway. Smoking, however, may be a different story.
Anyway, it was nice to just be with him. We laugh a lot when we're together, and get sleepy. I think we seriously grossed Angela out over the phone, but that was a lot of fun. Only because she does it to me all of the time with Sam though. Otherwise it'd just be mean.
'Where will we all go when it's too late?'
Though I keep questioning my future, especially with this relationship, I've come to realize that I do love David. He is so attractive, emotionally, physically, and spiritually. He knows how to take care of me, and how to make sure I'm alright. Not to mention, he sure is one talented guitarist. His singing isn't too bad either. I admire him so much. I just wish I could see him more often.
Humans don't do well with being alone. I do not do well with being alone. I have a loving, nurturing personality that I need to be able to use. A year and six months, and I will be eighteen, I will be free. Maybe by then more things will have changed. Or, rather, I know that they will have.
'Where have all the riots gone?'
To know that I have, and am, experiencing my first love is kind of scary. To realize that David could possibly be my only love, is even more frightening.
'Summer has come and passed, the innocent can never last. Wake me when September ends. Like my father has come to pass, seven years has gone so fast, wake me up when September ends. Here comes the rain again, falling from the stars. Drenched in my pain again, becoming who we are. As my memory rests, but never forgets what I have lost. Wake me up when September ends.'
I have simply decided to go with the flow though. Whatever happens, will happen. All that I can do is go on being who I am, and try to stay as true to myself as I possibly can.
'Please call me only, if you are comming home....'
I feel that my future is bright, I just need to keep cleaning off my window wipers to make sure that the path is constantly clear.
'Nobody likes you, everyone left you, they're all out without you having fun...'
Tonight I am calm.
'Jimmy died, today. He blew his brains out into the bay...'
-SaM
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