Now I Am A Grown Man With A Child Of My Own
2005-01-10 @ 11:14 p.m.
Haha, on Sunday Dave and I spread out on my bed and discussed what we would put on a 90s one hit wonders album.
'Sex and Candy' definetly made the list.
I'm sick, and I'm sleepy, but it's all good.
I feel like I'm becomming increasingly annoying to people, but I think that just might be my social anxiety kicking in. When I look at how social I have become, and how much I've crawled out of my shell I am amazed. I remember entire summers where I didn't take one foot outside of my home. Those summers spent inside while not too long ago, are not re-inacted at all anymore. That's nice to know.
Sometimes, I just can't but help fearing that I am going to revert back to my old habits. Will I start washing my hands so much that they crack and bleed again?(Don't get me wrong, I still wash them constantly, but much less than before.) Will I slowly cut myself off from all of my friends because my complex gets to be too much to handle? I pray that I do not. I don't want to descend back into that hole I was in.
Sure, I may still be a hermit, but I am most definetly making progress.
I haven't heard from my dad since last Wednesday.
'My daddy gave me a name, then he walked away....'
-SaM
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