Screw Your Bad Attitude
2005-02-26 @ 1:51 p.m.
A few minutes before this entry I was shaking and crying and all alone.
I am so sick of this adult like life
I feel responsible for all things I cannot control
Friends devestate me and shake me
Make me feel full of inequality and doubt
Forgotten and confused
I have been misused
I want to go sledding with no snow
Sing with no notes
Create a painting with words
I want out
Everyone is lost in love
Drunk in lust
Mistrust runs rampid
While innocent eyes give in once again
This will change
Tomorrow will be all smiles
They will not be fake
Glistening teeth and dimples
We will make it through
Only to begin again
I understand you no longer
Quaking and faking
Real life situation
We are wrong
I am a liar
Fingers grip onto yours
Sweat drips and they slip
I can save you
I will not loose you
Have you lost me?
I am such a mess right now, I swear. Maybe I'm not though, because now I feel okay. I need to start putting myself first, I need to start taking control. I can't be the saving grace of OPRFHS.
I want the same relationship that my friends have with their mom's, I want to be able to hug my mother and not feel awkward. I want her to be happy, I want to be okay.
I give up.
-SaM
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