Snowball 05
2005-03-06 @ 10:54 p.m.
My weekend was simply amazing.
There is no easy way to define it, it was truely life altering.
I have never felt so free and loved and calm before. Nor have I ever felt the love and comrodity that I do now for people I've only known a few days. Or, the love and comrodity I have rekindled and gained for two of my closest friends. I am so extremely happy to have been able to share such a lovely experience with Brynne and Sam, I don't think I'd want to have shared it with anyone else but them.
Brynne truely amazed me. I remember being so overwhelmed, right from the moment we got there. It was Friday night and I walked into the mess hall and caught Brynne in a hug that I don't think we've ever shared before, and it was so wonderful. This experience is one thing that we will have in common, and what we have learned we will take with us forever. I am so proud of her, and just..so happy to know what she accomplished and to know that I was able to share my same accomplishments with her. I am so just, ah, so glad to be friends.
Sam made me so proud of him, he was so brave and so kind and so honest. He made everyone fall in love with him because he is such a fantastic friend. When he spoke I had tears in my eyes, and when I was able to grab his hand afterwards it was so heartwarming. It was so hard to let go. I was so honored to be able to share my weekend with him.
I connected with everyone in my group on some level and I adore them all so much. We had a blast together and we were able to get heavy stuff out on the table.
Within the first three minutes of meeting everyone in my room, I knew it was something special. We ended up socializing so well, that we were late for lunch. Sam T. is a girl I knew when I was in first grade and we were inseperable, and her bed was directly diagonally across from mine. Can we say ironic? It was so great to be able to catch up with her and get to know her all over again. Denise, Maria, and Alex were wonderful too, and our honorary roommate Rebecca was really awesome as well, together along with Brynne and I we made a fantastic group.
What I shared and Snowball and what I heard and learned at Snowball are things I will not be able to ever forget. For those who were not there, they will think that we are all just a bunch of phony kids who are too sensitive, and they are wrong. I am being truthful when I say I feel a strong connection with almost everyone I met at Snowball, or at least a feeling of affection. I loved everyone there, I still do, and I wouldn't trade what I experienced for anything in the world. The hugs we gave one another are too comfy to go on ignoring them.
I'd say that I wish I could explain everything that happened at Snowball, that I could explain the feelings and the instant acceptence. However, I do not wish that I could, and I wouldn't even if I was able too. Snowball is for it's participants, it is for those who are willing to be open to being positive and for those who need it most in their lives. Snowball is not for everyone, but is for everyone who needs it. I needed Snowball to come into my life and make me have a different outlook, to make me feel comfortable, or as comfortable as I'm going to get in my own body. I needed Snowball to help me repair a friendship and strenghten another. I needed Snowball to show me the opinions and the lives of others. I needed Snowball, and I am not ashamed to admit it.
Snowball is for warriors of reality, and I am proud of each and every individual person that was there. I will be back next year.
-SaM
P.S. The warm fuzzies I recieved make me tear up in such a happy way everytime I read them.
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