Walking Dead-Chester Bennington Vocals on DJ Z-Trip FUCKING GOOD
2005-03-28 @ 1:24 p.m.
'Last night, he finally got it right, even losers can get lucky sometimes, all the freaks go on a winning streak...Shout it all around the world cause the geeks get the girls.'
Haha. Well, yesterday was emotional.
Crying with my boyfriend of a year and three months wasn't exactly what I had in mind. I had to talk to him though, I absolutely had to.
He brought his guitar though, and he's SO talented, it's insane! His singing voice isn't the greatist, but the way he strums and plucks those strings, it's so beautiful to experience. I've seen a ton of bands live, and when I watch him play it almost feels like I'm back inside of all those precious moments.
Anyway, after being goofy most of the day, and lovey-dovey, I finally made him listen to me. I couldn't explain my feelings of doubt without being entirely too over emotional though. I felt terrible for, well, it felt like I was 'listing' the things that were wrong with him. He's perfect, I just have issues. He did listen though, and he understood where I was coming from. He even admitted to a few things.
He will always be my first love, and for that he will forever reside in a special place in my heart. I explained to him this, and I told him how I want him to forever be a part of my life. I told him that neither of us have a key into the future. We do not know what will happen. I told him that I always want us to be friends and to always remain close.
Then things took a weird turn, when he made me promise to try to move on if something were to happen to him, i.e., he were to die. I did, but when I made him promise to try, it took a lot of convincing. It was very surreal and movie-esque. I'm still confused and a little bit scared over it.
I love him so much, but I feel like it's time to move on. Only, then I speak to him and I wonder how I could've ever thought that our time was nearing an end. I'm slowly figuring it out. I don't need to make any irrational decisions. I need to relax and let things happen.
If only it weren't so hard.
I feel like I need the change--now.
'Why am I so pathetic? I know you won't forget it.'
Today is so beautiful outside. Let's all go for a picnic.
This song is beautiful 'Walking Dead' with Chester Bennington(Linkin Park Lead) on vocals, created by DJ Z-Trip.
Wheee.
I smell inspiration.
Teehee.
More later.
-SaM
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